Living palely

You know how it can be when there are such different motivations behind the same actions? I flip in and out of glimpses of different ways of being when marking time hits. Realise that I'm not quite of the right species for the rigours of this life; I'm unfashionably earnest. Haven't quite grown habitual in affect regulation - can't live palely.

How to endure - when people put others lower than themselves to try to gain a certain elevation.

There are other ways. Seems to me.

I'm exploring those other ways.

Love and love.